Wednesday, February 18, 2009

I'm tired of waiting. Do it, what are you waiting for?
Why are you so afraid?

I wish things were more approachable. I can't get over feeling like people are too insecure nowadays, but I'm really not one to talk.

Now, I'm going to ask you again.
What makes you afraid? I want to see your scars, all of them.

I'd walk through a wall of fire if it meant that something was worth it on the other side.


  1. I'm afriad of dying alone. That maybe I was supposed to stay with my ex becuase at least he tolerated me...

  2. I fear the unknown. Things that the world doesn't know and can't explain. Things that make scientists wonder and wonder about for years, but never come to a conclusion. It scares me that there's something in this world that's just...there, without anyone knowing it.

    Also, I'm afraid of love.

    Maybe the edge of the world is fire, and when you walk through it, instead of dying, you show up in a field of daises and happiness.

    Who knows.

  3. I hate waiting. Sometimes I feel like my entire life is a perpetual game of waiting for the other shoe to drop.
    I hate that.
    Just give me the truth, honest and hard. Don't avoid the situation. Don't ignore it. Don't sugar coat it for me.
    I'm afraid of not knowing.

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  6. I am scared of what people perceive me to be. I am terrified of how I will be remembered. I so badly want to do something, or be someone- that people admire. I don't want to be thought of as the broken or sad girl. Even if that's who I am- I don't like anyone seeing it. I don't want to be THAT girl.
    I am afraid of who people are going to choose to be. It's like I never know who my friends & family are going to be today. Even the most important people in my life- seem to change who they are from day to day. I loose people I thought I knew, & people I cared about, everyday.

    I also HATE waiting. I keep having hope & faith and carry on thinking "it's going to be ok in the end". But I've been waiting for 7 years for my life to turn around. I've been waiting for a sign. I keep trying to be positive every time a good thing happens & tells myself that it's going to last- but I'm always wrong. I am afraid I'm always going to be wrong.

    My world is so fixated on pleasing people- that at the end of the day, I'm unhappy. & no-one I try to please even takes notice anyway.

    I guess I'm fucked.

  7. I’m afraid of being hurt again. I’m so afraid, that I’ll never let anyone see the real me, only what they want to see.