Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Today I remembered everything that I missed in my life. All the absent things. I guess you could say my life flashed before my eyes.

Only I wasn't dying.
Have you ever gotten the feeling where you don't think you're seeing things clearly? Sometimes I'll go to a place I've been dozens of times and never notice one little thing until it catches my eye and I'll say "I swear, that was not there before."

I think my brown eyes are tired and hazy. I need something remarkable.

I want to look at life through diamonds.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

"You don't need water to feel like you're drowning, do you?"
-Nineteen Minutes by Jodi Picoult
I feel like I was playing hide-and-seek and while I was counting with my back turned, something happened and people changed.


"The real monsters don’t hide in dark corners and closets. The real monsters are the ones that live behind your eyes, in the darkness of your mind, and it takes more than a flashlight to send them away."

Sunday, December 21, 2008

So I guess it's time for a real blog entry that isn't two sentences.

Christmas is almost here. Are you guys excited? What are your plans? Anything in particular you want?
I remember being seven years old and wanting Legos.
I never got them.
I've dropped hints and hunchs (or so I hope) to make this more obvious.

I am not BBU. Sorry kids.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

If I were to tell you I have a guise, would you be disappointed? Would you take back everything you ever told me?
I'd really like to believe that some of you care. All I could really ask for is some consideration.

But it's really hard when you don't know me.

Friday, December 19, 2008

I've been stressed, but this is as close to relaxation I can get.

Ready or not, here I come.